What Is The Grace of God to Me?

24 September 2017 (Sunday)

 

What was the grace of God for me yesterday?

The grace of God for me yesterday was that for a very brief moment, I could suddenly understand what the grace of God was in my situation when Smaw Smaw explained it to me. It was the brief moment that I could see the grace of God in my situation. It was the brief moment where there was a light in my mind and my entire being and a brief moment where I could actually believe! And that believe brought along a rest. A real feeling of rest and let go where I literally felt my stomach relaxed and the pain ebbed away. Where the foul metallic taste in my mouth disappeared. Where I could suddenly breathe easy again. Where I was suddenly confident that I could live, I would live and that everything was going to be ok. It was a brief moment where suddenly I felt this was the answer. I wasn't afraid of my body anymore and I could look at myself in the mirror with confidence and know that God loves that face. 

What is the grace of God to me today?

The grace of God to me today is that I am still alive today. That is the only grace I seem to be able to see today. It is hard today. My mind seem blocked and dark. My emotions running low. My body screaming that everything is not okay. Me trying to claw back the feeling, the believe and the rest I felt yesterday but to no avail. I don't know why. And it makes me panic.

What is the grace of God that I seem to know?

The grace of God that I seem to know is this: That once upon a time even before God created me, He knew and could see what I would be deathly afraid of in the future. He knew despite me not even being created yet. But God loved me very very much even then. And to Him, because He loved me so much, He did not want me to have to experience what I would be afraid of. Because He wanted me to just live a happy, victorious and utmost carefree life. He knew that I would very afraid to be sick and to contract cancer and other diseases that would end my life. And because God loved me so much, He decided to do this. He sent His only Son Jesus to be my fall-guy and substitute. So He sent Jesus on earth as a human SO THAT in my place, Jesus could contract that cancer that I am so afraid of. Jesus could contract whatever diseases that God knew I would be afraid of. He made Jesus contract it all for me as my substitute. So that by doing that, because Jesus did it FOR me and AS me, according to the law of double jeopardy, it cannot be placed upon me again. It cannot cannot cannot happen to me again because somebody, this Jesus, has already taken it FOR me and AS me. Therefore, because it has already happened, it cannot happen because otherwise God will be unjust to let it happen again because the curse can only happen ONE TIME!

Therefore, because Jesus has already contracted it, went through the full process of suffering it and even dying because of it and for it, it will never never never happen to me again! I will never never never contract it again because if I do, God is unjust to let the curse happen twice. Once in Jesus and once in me. 

So this is God's grace for me. That He wants to tell me, "There is no need to you to be so afraid ever again! Because IT WILL NOT happen to you. Because my Son has already contracted it for you and as you. It can only happen ONE TIME!"

"Therefore, since I have already removed what you fear from your life, there is no need for you to ever fear again because if you do, you are just wasting your time fearing for nothing as all. Fearing for something that will never happen to you."

"And that is why I always always tell you in the Bible to not fear and to be courageous. Because I know my Son has contracted the disease and sickness for you and as you."

"So today, I want you to know that the curse, the sickness, the disease, the obstacle has been removed from your life and from your future. It no longer has a hold on you. It's chains on you is broken. Because my Son took those chains on Himself."

"So now, rise up and walk and know that I have cleared the path ahead for your future. Your future is healed. Your future is healthy. Your future is a long live. Your future is obstacles free. Have that confidence! Jesus has already contracted it all for you. He was made sick so you will be healthy."

Now that is the grace of God to me.